I'll speak

What is really a true impossibility?

Is it something hard to reach or something you're just too afraid to do...

This year, I thought it was impossible for me to have fiends like I have now. I thought it would be impossible for me to study here in Manila. I thought it would be impossible for me to meet such a mysterious Duke.

But here I am having such creative and supportive friends, here I am studying in one of the best school in Philippines and here I am dreaming of him.

All this time, I kept on thinking that is impossible for me to do something but in the end I figure out how to do so. And I'm sick and tired of telling myself that it is impossible... because the truth is nothing is impossible... as long as you believe in your self.

Saying "it's impossible" is just an excuse of those people who are afraid of taking the risk and to tell you the truth... I'm one of those people who are cowards and weak... too afraid to take the risk... too scared to take responsibilities of his or her actions.

I'm afraid of rejection, I don't want a taste of reality that's why I keep myself in my own fantasy world where I could imagine myself as someone who everybody like and I'm a star of my own movie. I know it's wrong and I know for a fact that it would never be an easy road and I need to accept that for me to grow up.

I may be afraid of your answer but now I'm building myself... preparing for that taste that I have been running away from all these time...

It's not impossible as long as you believe in God and just walk with him... follow where he leads you even though you think it's crazy... because the truth is... we are like blind men who needs a person or a dog for direction.

This summer is the time for me to change and take off that "impossible" in my dictionary because I would never be afraid to take that risk... that responsibility... that taste of reality...

I will be a stronger person not just for my Duke but also for myself because a Duchess can never rule a country without the guts to do so...

I'm taking the IM in IMPOSSIBLE ^^

Is it a little bit too late?

Have you ever been in situation everything you wanted in your life just keep on pouring on the last minute when you were about to walk out of the door? Isn't a little bit irritating? And then next thing you knew you're asking God why it all happened? Why on the last minute just when I'm about to move on...

Yes, this blog is all about him again because honestly, in this ungodly hour... he's all I could think off because just maybe with a little chance... he could at least be my friend.

It's really a mystery what are God's plans and how to figure it out is as hard as figuring out your whole life. What did I miss during this 10-month stay in Adamson? I keep on wondering how I ended up with nothing but a bad reputation in his mind.

Probably, I was too persistent to the end that he just think of me as a stalker and loon who just like him for his face which is totally wrong. I want to be friend with him, I hope it's not too late though because it's my first time to meet someone who I want to figure out so badly.

Usually, I'm a person who could easily figure out things but when it comes to him... it's just blahh... what the hell is he? What is he like? It's really frustrating!

Oh Mr. LSH... you're just full of YOU

My Duke

It was raining when I first saw him, it was as if the world stop spinning and all I could see was him walking slowly. He didn't looked at me but I still still fell into his eyes. I became friends with his companions and I thought through that we will be close but the semester ended but I didn't got the chance to sit with him in a table and just talk.

The second semester started and next thing I knew, he shifted his course. What used to be white is now mixed with gray pants. Although, nothing changed between us actually. I still don't see him around the campus, as the our campus is that big. The only time I see him is either coincidence or I'm totally waiting for him.

Just like last semester, I coincidentally became friends with his best friend. But unfortunately, my image in his eyes became worse. He just seem to avoid me and he doesn't want to see me around.

Now, there's only few days left before summer start and again, I won't be seeing him around. And what hurt is that there won't be a next semester to look forward to since after two months, his wish of not seeing me anymore will come true. We won't be going to the same school anymore.

I won't give up because I'm tired of giving up but this time, I'm letting God take over because He is my only hope for this fairy tale to have a happy ending